About me

I find myself lost and confused at 24. I've been to college 5 times now and still no degree. Which isn't to suprising since i've never been able to complete anything. I'm the wife of an Infintry man in the US Army and already, at 24, have to beautiful boys. The only thing I have ever been good at is drawing but even that is amiture work. i have a record for only holding a job for a year.. Really i have had 8 jobs from the age of sixteen and nothing has ever come close to being what i want to do. I would love to be a tattoo artist but the cost to just apprentice is around $10,000. And you have to pay it up front. I'm from Georgia but now live in hawaii. Always broke cause the army doesn't pay enough out here to live. i hate living paycheck to paycheck. i don't even have enough after bills and food to save. its makes me want to scream. i would love to get a job but child care out here is way to much to even think about. Plus we will be leaving in December so whats the point. And yeah i know I sound like a child crying out for attention but you know thats really one thing i can say i'm a pro at doing. I tried my had at writing a novel. Got 12 chapters done too but the fear of rejection made me stop. i am so jealous of my husband for having a career, and it sure doesn't help that he throws it in my face every chance he gets. i was put on this earth to do something but what????? i don't think I'll ever finish anything. And then when i'm old and gray I'll look back at my life in disappointment. What am I here for?? jessi